CKD & The Black Dog – and nilla support & politics

There’s nothing kinky about this post, and as we’ve just passed Mental Health Awareness Week in the UK (or was it month) 

Geek fact. Both Winston Churchill, and   Samuel Johnson)  supposedly used the term the Black Dog to talk about depression in their depression. Possibly a myth about Churchill and some theories suggest he referred to annoying children visiting as ‘another visit from the black dog’

“”The term ‘black dog’ was first used to describe feelings
of melancholy by Dr Samuel Johnson”

Depression affects everyone at some point in their life, sometimes recurring and is common in those with kidney problems. It certainly hits on libido and relationships.

This months edition of Kidney Matters, the charity publication from Kidney Care UK has an excellent article on the subject of Walking The Black Dog on P30, and both the National Kidney Federation and Kidney Care UK have information on depression and support.  These charities and their site contents and support apply to UK residents only. All services are provided by the charity from fundraising and support.

I’ve made the step this month to get some more counselling, by phone from KCUK And also reached out to my own care team for help, as they may be able to help financially.  So, if your suffering from either finance problems, or depression,  overcome any shame and reach out for help, be it with financial costs for travel or white goods.

There’s no doubt the the Coalition Gov and then tory Rule, is going to have a knock on effect for years to come, even if the gov changes in the UK on Dec 12th..  I WILL be voting Labour, and if you want the truth on claims from the opposition look at a site such as FULL FACT.

Flu Jab – And the NHS

This is possibly one of the unsexiest posts your gonna get, I really don’t want to get into political posts. Its depressing, and to quote the song ‘No Matter Who You Vote For’  the government always gets in!
The UK healthcare system, is by and large ‘FREE’ at the point of service to those who need it.

It works, its not the best, but one of the best globally. Its under threat, from that stinking blond haired skunk and our own insane PM. People like myself will suffer, and some die, even more. But private healthcare is still NOT the answer, that would not change that.

So I’ve had this years flu jab. Whatever your opinions IF you have a chronic condition it can save lives. Not everyone, they don’t always get it right, and hey, the earth has too many capitalising predators anyway. Top wealth in the UK is distributed to less than 100 people, and people have the NERVE to go on about equality!

The current rule is, one health issue’ one appointment. Hmm suspicious that, GP’s get paid ‘by appointment’ Many are run by ‘semi private’ companies, or indeed fully commercial such as Virgin Health.

I digress, I had to push to get a flu jab (supposed to be a separate appointment), and in theory book separate appointments, maybe months apart as its nigh on impossible at the moment, if its not an emergency.
Thankfully I also covered mental, sexual health, and my hearing issues without having toe make another appointment, which if I did book would be 2 days in December, and that would only cover 2 issues.

All I Need Triggers – Good Triggers

Funny how music can act as a little trigger. Usually I’ll listen to radio 2 to set up You Bastard on Sat (if L isn’t taking a turn). No issue with Ken Bruce but I prefer something a little less 60’s Love Songs (Although the trippy title music on Britannia is fun) R2 gets the other 3 days a week, I do my treatments. Theres really no explanation of why I should name medical equipment after a fictional mathematical genius who happens to be a camel, but..   Just BECAUSE…:)

So Smooth Chill is my chosen audio trip on most Sat mornings.
Turn it on, out of the phone streams a song I haven’t heard for a while. Way back in the 80’s, ancient history for todays nippers) a mate introduced me to Air (he was French) and they played a major chill out, love music and got used a lot in advertising, outdoor events etc that I used to go to.

So, let me introduce you to Air – All I Need words sung by Beth Hirsh,
You can check out the lyrics here:

All I need is a little time
To get behind this sun and cast my weight
All I need is a peace of this mind
Then I can celebrate

Air got me through many many stressful nights, and days, full albums on my first MP3 player (which I still have) and a decent set of headphones for some serious trance like chill out on the stereo in my bedroom (Which don’t have)

Incidentally Air also wrote the soundtrack for and music for the dark love romance Virgin Suicides, 
Full track Album

And some quotes from the film during s scene of passion.

“The word ‘Hurricane’ is the name given to nature’s strongest storm.
A hurricane occurs when high pressure and low pressure masses of air come in contact with one another.

There is often a significant difference in temperature between the two masses.
One mass is warm, while the other is cold.
The warmer air rises, and the cooler air falls.
Likewise, the low pressure area slides down the sides of the high pressure area.

They swirl in and around one another, creating the beginnings of the storm.”

To be fair I haven’t listened to a lot of their newer work, and some if it, really doesn’t have the same chill out aspect, but variety generally good.  Party on.

Bill from Rope, Roses and Red

Some unscheduled activity

I don’t normally play in the evenings, despite the fact this.  Or lets say I don’t usually LIKE playing in the evening. Usually our play time is late.. Round about 11 or after IF its in the evening.  Don’t get me wrong, we’ve had some good 2 hour evening/night time sessions but these are rare.

Really a ‘newbies rule of thumb’ is ‘don’t play/exercise/try to do deep coding when your exhausted’ Just don’t.  Unless your a young hormone rich healthy person in which case keep at it. There really ARE plenty of articles to back this theory up, so feel free to check it out via a search engine of your choice.

Last night warm bed, under a duvet can be quite arousing. However unless you keep the heating whacked up, the room soon chills.

What fails it is, getting out from under the warm duvet, ‘red’ going to get a towel, and basic foreplay, touching teasing. I know which buttons to push, and exactly where they are. Given that its the first time I’ve actually felt frisky in a long time it was worth a go. This IS long term CKD, having been knocked back by a virus, and general getting up at 6 AM most days.

I treated a couple of O’s to the girl, *I have MAGIC FINGERS*  (really playing her body like an instrument is a huge turn on for me) but the problem is, post treatment, more dehydrated perhaps, end of the day, so the position is there, the energy is their, but I turn to half mast. And really cannot be arsed to finish myself off, nor was their an offer of help..  I know a few people who would be willing, but thats another story!  It was enjoyable, steamy, passionate and loving all the same.

Time for a break from this, its barely above freezing here dear readers, but the physical form needs some exercise! I just thought you’d like to know the beast isn’t completely dead!

Comments, and feedback, are, as always, very welcome. Love licks and spanks. Rope and Roses

Don’t Drink the Lemonade – A Munching I did go!

So, I got a lift last night (Mon) of the delightful young D, a 28 year old f sub,  (who I’d quite honestly love to do diabolical and sordid deeds with!) to the local Fetish Munch (Telford Fetish Munch on Fetlife) Going after treatment, is, always a challenge for me. It washes me out, literally, so a 2 and a half hour nap, and after a month or so of depression I was not quite usual self. Its an informal munch but supposedly the only gay pub in the village, makes me think of elements of Royston Vasey and indeed a C4 program of the same name! If you care to check its the 3 Furnaces, Madely! 

Its actually a regular, but  remote pub, seemingly with a bit of a reputation ‘Its a drug den’, oh yes I’ve HEARD of it, but is allegedly the only fairly tolerant to LGBTQ+ folks in the area, I do find this hard to believe. Its listed as a gay pub but its pretty open, although the pink walls near the stage area do kinda shout out! I say remote, OK its stuck on a main road, across the edge of the Brookside estate (possibly named after the TV program)! 

They do have a poker night and various acts/drag events on during the week it seems. Although the poker players seem to be more of a modern day gang from Bugsey Malone than adults! Age wise, they look like school kids!

Not feeling at my best I went to get a drink, treat myself to a Pepsi, they only do Pepsi Max  WTF!  So I go for a lemonade, I must remember. I’ve had the taste of artificial sweetener in my mouth since last night, and it won’t go till my next treatment tomorrow morning.  Better to bring my own flask or stick with tea! Possible the most random conversation was that of the location of a power socket. I think would have been right up MrsWolfie’s style of debate! (Why I think this I dunno). We’ve talked so much over the years we could well have met more than twice person.

About 21 people turned up, now thats about my limit for an event, especially in a small venue. I’ve now added a few more people on Fet, and can hopefully work towards meeting them more regularly. This includes one bi sub who’s a bit outside my age range that I usually think about with males, although online I’ve had a few! Nice backside tho, and a mascohist! 

Might be trying ANOTHER Mon night munch in a few weeks, again, getting a lift from the lovely D

Will I go again. Hell yes, its the social aspect of being comfy around like and openminded people that I miss even without fairs and play! And if more events come about, trips to BBB or kinky peeps bowling (who doesn’t enjoy sticking in 3 fingers and playing with balls!) Then I’m in.